Hello my journal.
Absolution, the traditional theological term for forgiveness.
I have done some good and really bad things in my life. Recently I have acted terribly towards certain people in my life. My friendships are falling apart and I am extremely scared of loneliness.
I feel that the fluidity of my life is no longer a stream, or even a trickle. I am dripping in life where life comes in a burst and there is no in between and no way to reconcile whatever may occur in those short bursts.
I have done awful, terrible, heinous things in my life. Sometimes so bad I felt like ending it all just to feel absolved of all sins but I can't thro